Problems

Loving you
Seems to be a problem
If you do not reciprocate
I fear I’ll be ashamed
For loving a man as great as you
And not having him with me
Loving you
Seems to be tearing me apart

Wanting you
Seems to be a problem
I lay awake at night
Wishing you shared my bed
My days pass with quick speed
Because you are in my head
Wanting you
Seems to occupy my day

Opening myself
Seems to be a problem
I fear my hopes are not your hopes
My dreams will seem foreign
Perhaps you’ll laugh at my words
Or realize how I can bore you
Opening myself
Seems to keep me away from you

Committing myself
Seems to be a problem
Giving my time, my soul, my love
I have yet to make that step
Either I know it will not work out
Or I am scared to screw up
Committing myself
Seems to keep me away from you

A$$hole

Do you ever feel like a complete asshole?
You're thinking, saying, doing things that make you cry.
You hide behind the false smile and the too sincere laugh.
But your eyes, if anyone bothered to look betray your feelings.
It's all there, the self-hate, the self-deprecation,
All the horrible thoughts that keep you up at night are visible in your eyes.
But no one looks, so you don't tell them you feel like a complete asshole.